Day 10- Is the chain of past memories seen as a curse?

January 10^th

“Charlie, get away!”

“What the hell are you doing?”

My dream usually ends up with a moment of pain as I wake up. So does Charlie- The morning is as ordinary when the clouds are crying with Charlie. As usual, I have a cup of coke and two fried eggs sitting beside Charlie for dinner. Dr.Haha tests my time to see how fast can I reach the end of the maze. I watch One Piece after becoming sweating and disgusting. There is no special things occur which makes me humdrum. However, Charlie tells me a very rare thing- He seems to be linking the past memories every time when he falls asleep. For instance, he tells me that his mom and her sister dislike him, or detest since they see him as a retard who is hopeless from the decision of god. Charlie gets bullied with unknown reasons in school with blood all over his faces. Despite the teacher reprimand the bullies, however, this event had caused a trauma in Charlie’s childhood. He is evoking his past memories with scare as if his surrounding people are going to abandon him again. I walk into his cloth and running forward as I intend to encourage him from the past memories. Will people be easily injure from past memories that don’t even exist physically? In addition, throughout this entire event, I realize a thing: Does a stupid person cannot acquire past memories? What happens if that statement is true? Will all the families with stupid people reproach on god? This is ridiculous and nonsense! If I were a human, I shall take I responsibility to maintain my righteous to against god. I fall asleep as I finish imaging these preposterous questions. Charlie tells me that he is going to visit his old house an hour after. His family members include: Garcia, who is Charlie’s dad and has recognized the fate of Charlie. Therefore he supposed Charlie’s mom, or Rose to send him to Warren State Home and Training School. Rose, who is Charlie’s mom, threatens to put Charlie into Warren State Home and Training. It is a school  which contains the gray, hopeless institution which provides a place for retarded children and adults. Despite she knows most certainly that Charlie is incapacitate for any essential skills or behaviors, nevertheless, she remains stubborn when the topic “ Charlie is not a normal kid” brought out which usually from the misconducts of Charlie. Norma, who is Charlie’s sister, resists any invitations from Charlie when he wants to play games with her. Charlie introduces his family with tears and sorrow. I bet he can be satisfied with this sentence I tell him:

"With every tear we shed, we grow stronger; and with every tear, our memories grow stronger."

In addition, I tell him that I am always a loyal friend of him who will never abandon him. He receives such a relief after saying this sentence. His reaction also demonstrates that he yet does not have any real friends after he become smarter than the original form of him.