Day 13- It is such a pleasure to be with you!

January 13^th

Thiss is me- Algurnun. I an now a stupif mouse but before I was smart who joinned the broin operation. As I becom more stupid i gues Charlie will follow my shadow of wind since he had had had the same opeaiton as mine .. Despitee I became stupif, nebertheless, I still can be the proces of Charle even tho it kind of does not makes sense as iff he is go follow my shadow. I cannot remember the thin I said so i guess I am stupid already. Perhps I become smarrter from originally. Isn’t people has IQ of 0 when they are o years old? Charlies getting stupif as me too today he goes back to bakery. Evennn though he is becoming stufid, however, his freinds still play around hirm. Charlie has a smile from the first time I have seen him- A truly smile that attracts people to bee his feirends. There he jumps and embrace his friends with a truly fierndship that seems to be never braken at all. However, it iss different from me. Despite Charl is no longger a genius compore to the later- on himmself nevertheless he learn how to socileze and become a humour person before the opration. In other wordos, he is sort of arrogent after the brain opation but did not show his proud to me. I guess this is the best end right? Where people want the original Charl, one who wants to takeed back controll of his body to realitty. Charlie tells me one thinng before his brain start changing, that he has visisited his family. When Charl goes back to hiss old house, he only see his mom but not other family members. Acording to Charli’s description, his mom has a disease named “ Alzheimer’s disease”. It is a dissease that cause her mom become eerie and sometimes lose her knowledge. Norma stays with his mom while Charli’s dad open a barbershop in Bronx. Charli remainnns happppy when he see her mom. This alllso demonstroote one thing- Charli let her mom know he is no lonnger a stupif person who always requirrred othur’s help. Charl said that her mom is kind of shocked when he knocks the door, However, after several conflicts, they ssem to be fine with each other. Charli’s having great time after becoming stupid. He is sent back to the orgnial bakery where he lives and work there. He has great time laughinging around with his friends. Despite he does not have his high-knowledge anymore, however, does the curront life make him better? Perhaps it’s the god’s present to him for his birth. I am very please with Charli, a man who I have never seen can bee so strong that he intends to against the god who gives him such poor life. He is a remarkable person- even better then the one having opration. This is because he has friendship after becoming stupid. May it’s the time I need to sleep. As I closse I eyes with a smile but no tears, I have realizing one thing- It is sach a pleosure to be with you!

Day 12- I will keep going until I can reach the sky-

January 12^th

Charlie is worriied about the lost of my knowledge as soon as I get even mroe stupid. In addition, Charlie reflects this event on himself too, who might become an idiot after possessing the pieces of lost memories. Despite he does not mention that, however, I does know what he thinks. He starts calculating the formulas Dr.Haha gives him. He equations are so messy that I cannot able to understand. As for me, currently, is running in the maze to see if I really got stopid or not. I run without any ideas and thoughts. I have hit the wall over five times and becoming so exhausted that I decide to give up. What should I do if I am stupif? Are thosee people going to abandom me from this building? What happened if I run away to avoid their awareness or worries? Does Charlie still see me as a friend?  No doubt that Charlie knows he is going to be stupid after he becoming smart since he has done the same operation after Charlie. The reflection from me may cause him upsat, however, he needs to face the truth of it. I walk into my room slowly as if I already know the end of my life- murk with people leughing at me. Why Charlie is still calculating the formula to find the mistake in this brain operation? Currently, everything is negligible and hopeless.

I have my lunch at eight o’clock. All the scenes from my view is still so normal that I cannot believe I am dumb. Is this a punishment from god of ownning a great opperunity to have such a brain operation? Maybe I should start digging a grave for me and just jumping inside would be better for all of us.. Yes! This is it! I am going to do this for everyone’s sake. As soon as I see a place with funerals but forgot what is that call, or a cemetary perhaps, I start digging with my hands and then doing it as fast as I can. However, I do not know the purpose of doing this. I am such a idiot who does thinngs on a whim. Suddenly, I see Charlie Groden who chases me like a monster and soon I want to escape from him. Nevertheless, he catches me with a eerie smile according to what I see. His smile is so eerie that I cannot identittfy he is my friend or he is going to hurt me. I have no idea where is it and where am I? Do I have a person who can stay by my side with? Will Charlie think of these questions after he becomes dumb?

At last, I am still in my rooom doing nothing but staring at the red floor. I rilly don’t knw what should I do now and future? Will Charlie able to save me? Soon Charlie opens my door with out any knocking. I cannot understand him but it’s something good to me since he smile. Charlie then talks to Dr. Haha about the mistake of the operation he found. I do no understnad so far right now.

Day 11- The angel's game comes with a wry smile- or is it?

January 11^th

I keep continue having strange behaviors throughout the morning. When I am going to take breakfast, I walk into the bathroom and even jump outside of the window. Fortunately, I am not injured at all. However, things do not get so quickly. When I am going to run in the maze, I can barely see myself as a reflection of Charlie. I am shock and speechless until Dr.Haha calls my name four times. I fall down at the table when I am going to watch anime. What is going on with me? Charlie builds an elaborate maze to me as a present. It is better than the ones Dr.Haha has it. Anyways, I decide to stay with Charlie in order to be safe from miserable accidents. Charlie decides to go shopping with Ms.Kuku at evening. I hide inside of his right pocket to protect from the great freezing temperature as if I can die immediately when I feel the temperature. Charlie spends an hour in movie theater and wandering the streets, just to be among other people. He eats  the diner where he took Alice after their movie date. A mentally disabled busboy accidentally breaks some dishes, and as he sweeps up the mess, the customers stare at him cruelly. No doubt that he is most certainly the target of the customers’ mockery, the busboy smiles along with their insults. Charlie is infuriated and screams to the crowd that the busboy is human and deserves respect. Charlie buys a lot of things: shoes, clothes, and a pencil. He bought two pairs of shoes made by a famous brand called “New Balance”. One pairs of shoes is white with red at the side. Another one contains green with black at the side. Despite I recommend him not to buy these two since they look really ugly not as nice as I saw the few ones before, nevertheless, he always remains stubborn on the things he consider as “fantastic”.  I am still having tests after they finished  shopped. Dr. Haha tells me that my record is decreasing like the wane of the Tang Dynasty which had been conquered by the Song Dynasty. Does it related to my eerie behaviors or unfortunate luck? I did not tell him my behaviors on morning since I thought it is not important at all. 

After three hours my behavior is rilly weird as if I am geting stupid. But how is that even possible? I tell Dr. Haha about this and soon he realizes that there is something missing in the opration but with no solutions came out. What shoud I do right now? Will my surounding people starts becomes irritating at me since I become stupid? I run as fast as I can to ask for Charlie’s help. He is glaring at me with dumfounded mood. He then sudenly  take out a pencl and asking for the formulas and process of brain opration. He then calkulates  over 30 times as if he is still incapacitat of having a solution. 

Day 10- Is the chain of past memories seen as a curse?

January 10^th

“Charlie, get away!”

“What the hell are you doing?”

My dream usually ends up with a moment of pain as I wake up. So does Charlie- The morning is as ordinary when the clouds are crying with Charlie. As usual, I have a cup of coke and two fried eggs sitting beside Charlie for dinner. Dr.Haha tests my time to see how fast can I reach the end of the maze. I watch One Piece after becoming sweating and disgusting. There is no special things occur which makes me humdrum. However, Charlie tells me a very rare thing- He seems to be linking the past memories every time when he falls asleep. For instance, he tells me that his mom and her sister dislike him, or detest since they see him as a retard who is hopeless from the decision of god. Charlie gets bullied with unknown reasons in school with blood all over his faces. Despite the teacher reprimand the bullies, however, this event had caused a trauma in Charlie’s childhood. He is evoking his past memories with scare as if his surrounding people are going to abandon him again. I walk into his cloth and running forward as I intend to encourage him from the past memories. Will people be easily injure from past memories that don’t even exist physically? In addition, throughout this entire event, I realize a thing: Does a stupid person cannot acquire past memories? What happens if that statement is true? Will all the families with stupid people reproach on god? This is ridiculous and nonsense! If I were a human, I shall take I responsibility to maintain my righteous to against god. I fall asleep as I finish imaging these preposterous questions. Charlie tells me that he is going to visit his old house an hour after. His family members include: Garcia, who is Charlie’s dad and has recognized the fate of Charlie. Therefore he supposed Charlie’s mom, or Rose to send him to Warren State Home and Training School. Rose, who is Charlie’s mom, threatens to put Charlie into Warren State Home and Training. It is a school  which contains the gray, hopeless institution which provides a place for retarded children and adults. Despite she knows most certainly that Charlie is incapacitate for any essential skills or behaviors, nevertheless, she remains stubborn when the topic “ Charlie is not a normal kid” brought out which usually from the misconducts of Charlie. Norma, who is Charlie’s sister, resists any invitations from Charlie when he wants to play games with her. Charlie introduces his family with tears and sorrow. I bet he can be satisfied with this sentence I tell him:

"With every tear we shed, we grow stronger; and with every tear, our memories grow stronger."

In addition, I tell him that I am always a loyal friend of him who will never abandon him. He receives such a relief after saying this sentence. His reaction also demonstrates that he yet does not have any real friends after he become smarter than the original form of him.

Day 9- Opposition against crossing over the parallels

January 9^th

Ms.Kuku is angry at the event I as I tell her that Fay intend to have inappropriate behaviors with Charlie. This is a fact with supporting details : First, that woman, or Ms. Alice  is the one who plans to let Charlie becomes drunk. Second, Ms. Alice does not resist from Charlie having these inappropriate things going on. Therefore, I would want to conclude one thing: That woman, Ms.Alice, is extremely despicable who does not even have permission from Charlie before such a thing happens. Ms.Kuku leaves earlier than usual, no doubt that  she is going to interrogate the entire event with Charlie in a  infuriate mood. I am stalking behind her since I am curious about it. Charlie opens the door with no surprises or glares as Ms.Kuku knocks the door. Charlie then begins the conversation “ Hey Ms.Kuku. How’s going on?” Charlie knows what Ms.Kuku is concerning about with a indifferent glare from Ms.Kuku. Charlie is asked to explain everything that happened yesterday. Charlie tells her with scare since he is not the irreverent one in the event occurred yesterday. After all the explanation on details, whether the first step of the action Ms.Alice does or the reaction Charlie remains before becoming drunk had let Ms.Kuku fully understand. She asks Charlie to meet with Ms.Alice at night eight o’clock. I assume that Ms.Kuku is going to threaten to her to stop contacting with Charlie. The situation can be depicted as “very terrible” as the moment when Ms.Alice meets Ms.Kuku. Ms.Kuku starts the conversation with “ Despite you may not know that, however, I am Charlie Gorden’s teacher who hereby asks you to leave far away from him!” Ms.Alice is shock with a gaze of Ms.Kuku’s face. “What the hell are you talking about ?” says Ms.Kuku who intends to build higher tension between them.  Ms.Kuku replies slowly as if she is indignant with her. “ As I mention before, please leave Charlie away. You will bring out bad influence to him compare to me.” Ms. Alice soon contains a sense of loathe to Ms.Kuku saying “ Wow, I have never ever heard this from other people.” She then leaves and trample the floor so hard that she wreaks her mood out to the floor. Despite Charlie does not know this, nevertheless, Ms.Kuku is jealous on Ms. Alice who desires to having inappropriate actions on Charlie. The action from Ms.Alice demonstrates such a torrid love affair towards Charlie. He yet does not know the emotion of jealousy from Ms.Kuku since he does not yet develop his immaturity which happens the same before when she kisses Ms.Kuku. I lie at my cushion after this event is finally over. I surmise that humans are scary when they attempt to receive the precious things they desire to own possession of it. In addition, all the people contain a certain sense of avarice in this society. Would I be one of them  if I were a human? I fall asleep as I am thinking about this question.

Day 8- The words that can pass through your boudnary

January 8^th

I have a very different breakfast on the morning since I ask Dr.Haha to prepare  my breakfast. This is the first time I receive a breakfast from him. However, it tastes sour and disgusting. I walk around in the building as usual to see any special or different things occur. I go back to my room after thirty minutes since it is humdrum compare to staying at my own room watching animation. I am hooked by an Japanese animation call “Guilty Crown”, which is incontrovertibly true on the avarice of people. People in the world is always greedy. They would want to obtain even more after they receive the things they admired before. Therefore, people will betrayed others for its own benefit. Immolation of life is a behavior of holy to gods such as Jesus. If I were the innocent people who is killed by the antagonize, I would intend to control the world by my own hands without any concession with others. People are not reliable as they mention before. Anyways, I decide to go under the hole of Charlie’s room to see what he is doing currently. I am daunting by the actions they do as I finally go inside of his room. Specifically, the word “they” in my sentence encircles Charlie who is drank and another woman who intend to take of his cloth and having sex inappropriate behaviors in which I never see them through my eyes before. Something happens when the woman finally takes of his pants and underwear. Charlie is acting with immaturity as if the old Charlie, the one who waves his hands at me and with a big smile, appears with almost the same action as he met me at the first time. Charlie is moving his hands up and down with his body shaking, almost like a childish drunk who desires to survive in his workplace. It is obvious to know that the woman is intimidating by the action from Charlie.  I assume that her brain is interpreting this unknown situation in which she is facing an unfamiliar type of Charlie. Soon when Charlie is awake at the time the woman is going to have sex insult his body. He quickly move away with a look of shock in his eyes. He says “ What are you doing?”. Charlie runs away as fast as he can. Despite the woman leaves after him, however, I am wondering about one thing. What is going on with Charlie’s behavior throughout the time when he is drunk or drunk by that woman? He remains the same compare to the moment when he confessed with Ms.Kuku, who is his English teacher.   I am musing this question while I walk on the hallway slowly. Does he know that he remain inappropriately as he is drunk? Does he know how to resolve this problem? I continue watching series of animation as I am back to my own place. What will happen if Ms.Kuku know about this event?

Day 7 - The fake humanitarians at the hunting ground

January 7^th

Dr.Haha asks Charlie to go to China in this evening for the International Psychological Convention in China. Charlie consent with a great reluctant shown on his face. More importantly, he asks Dr.Haha to bring me on as a deal to go to the convention. Charlie walks to school earlier compare any of the school days. It is obvious to know without stalking at him that he does not have any friendship and seen as a monster of knowledge from the perspective of students in this school. The rain falls again as if it helps clean up the mood of humdrum from people with thunder howling its grief beyond the sky as if it’s close at hand. Charlie does not have a friend in the school yet. I am watching a television program call “TED” in which brings out sagacious information about diversity things- Bacteria, Languages, Temple Run, or CSI Miami. The reason why I am telling this because I am extremely irritated with nothing I can do to help Charlie. I can see myself in Charlie’s shadow in past as if I need to force myself to acknowledge everything I lost before. Nevertheless, today ends without any conversation with anyone including Dr.Haha.

Charlie puts me in a bag as he finishes packing up his luggage with multiple times of sigh. He does not want to go to the convention where we have to act like a “creature” from Mars since we are going to be asking a lot of questions to demonstrate that the experiment groups do not sham their great victory on evolutionary change of people. I am sitting on the podium as Dr.Haha is explaining about the entire process and treatments. However, Charlie’s face is becoming more agitated as if he is going to destroy this convention at every second. Suddenly, Charlie requires Dr.Haha to give permission on speaking with his own point of view. He then gives a rejoinder on what Dr.Haha mentions especially on “treated as a human being”. As Charlie says: “It may sound like ingratitude, but that is one of the things I hate here-the attitude that I am not treated as a human but more likely an animal. Dr.Haha’s constant references made me what I am, or that someday there will be others like me who will become real human beings. How can I make him understand that he did not create me?" Tension between Charlie and Dr.Haha builds out immediately as if Charlie was expecting such a thing would happen. I, as an innocent mouse who participates in the brain operation, am not able to recognize righteous between both of them. It’s a parallel between the boundaries they stand. Therefore, none of the things can be consent or agree upon. Who is the person that reaches out to my righteousness? What happens if that righteousness gives birth to tragedy? Shall I test to see if such righteousness is worth possessing?  Charlie embraces me with his words: “I swear I will go there! I will go to the place where we once saw righteousness together!” I receive such a relief when I heard from him.